Part of the reason that I have not written recently is that I haven't really felt like it. In fact I haven't really felt like doing much of anything. I wouldn't say I am depressed but I have exactly been farting out sunshine either. Not sure there is one cause but can think of some things that might be contributing. I don't want this to be a "Oh - look how sucky my life is" kind of a post so I am not going to talk about these reasons.
Instead, in an attempt to move past this "partly-cloudy to mostly-cloudy" time I will focus on writing about some things that are supplying me with a bit of joy.
First off I recently came across some great music. Thanks to the magic of Pandora! (Sidebar - if Pandora was a girl imagine how much easier dating would be. It's like Pandora knows everything I like and don't like and then introduces me to stuff I didn't know that I like. Amazing!)
Anyway - the music is great. Not only do I like the tunes themselves, but I can relate to the lyrics as well. I have been listening to it regularly and it still isn't getting old. (Definitely not like that one song by that one girl that that one station plays all the time. And don't act like you don't know what I am talking about. I bet you even secretly listen to it and sing along.)
Check it out. If you like it, buy it. I did. Hunter Johnson
(Continued after a 1.5 day delay. Can you believe it, some student was so inconsiderate and came in for help with his Geometry. Kids these days are so selfish.)
We are also preparing for a big life change in our house. We are days away from welcoming our baby girl. The feelings associated with the second child are somewhat different for me than the first. There is still excitement. I am excited to have a girl. Many times I have imagined having a little girl and am very excited to turn these into reality.
However, I have some reservations. I now know from personal experience all about late night feeding, blow-out diapers and long nights with a sick baby. At times having a 3 year old seems like all my patience can handle. Put these two together and it can be a bit overwhelming. Oh-yeah and there is the second mortgage known as day-care + baby food/formula + diapers.
Of course all-in-all the positives greatly outweigh the negatives. I had a blast last night playing Ninja Turtle Bowling with my son. Even though, according to him he beat me every time. I guess that happens when you get to go first every time. I know he will be a great big brother and my wife is the most patient loving mother (well - probably second behind my mom, but she is the Michael Jordan of moms). Between the effort and love she gives to her students at school and our family I'm not sure how she does it all.
In the end a few lessons have been learned over the last few weeks.
- Music is awesome (even Blank Spaces can serve a purpose)
- Write - it makes you feel better and lets you think through your thoughts (I think smart people have a fancy word for that)
- Find someone who you can share your feelings with (you aren't fooling those that are close to you by covering up your worries and "bad" feelings)
- Enjoy what comes your way and don't worry too much about things (so far for 34 years everything has worked out pretty well - no reason to think this trend won't continue)
Cheers
-Mr. Dolores
